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i am AELIS
aka SILEA
i love the FRENCH HORN & TRUMPET and the CELLO!
i love STCBAND! many instruments, one sound. many sections, one family!
i love the HORNS & TRUMPETS! GO HORNIES & TRUMPETERS!
i am currently in sec 4 ATOMIC! watch out, we'll blow you away!
i was born on ohfive onetwo ninefour. presents are always welcome(:
i am taking part in CHINGAY 2010! look out for me!
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Tuesday, August 28, 2007 @5:04:00 AM
♥ aelispeaks:more and more songs.
yep. i'm back with more songs. haha. that was so lame. anyway, there's another post below...so go read that first. both were typed today btw. anyway, these are songs that i wrote long ago...and never posted. so...now they're getting their chance to be discovered. hahaha.
1.
i wish i could fly
to my troubles i'd say be.
all those i cared about,
and all those who pushed me out
i'll leave them for a place
and love alone for all my days
no cliques, no populars.
no bitching, no losers.
all i'll have is the sky,
and me, myself and i.
no more perfect little child
no more caring about styles.
no more running
no more hiding
i'll scream jump run
till the day's done
i'll do what i wanna do
and stop when i want to
i'll sleep all day and play all night,
do what i think is right.
i know that's just dreamland,
but i'll do what i can
i'm already partway there
so there's not much left to bear.
even at home,
i'm alone
i'm like a maid
they wish i was dead
and sometimes...i do too
but i gotta keep living, keep staying strong
cos i know taking a life is just wrong.
it's written in the Bible.
the strongest for survival.
you may not be happy at my arrival,
but i gotta stay strong,
and move along.
i gotta tell myself
going away to dreamland won't help,
you gotta save yourself,
and i ain't gonna say nothing else.
the end. haha. but dont worry i'm not like a maid or anything as bad as the song seems, it's just something to put into the song. =)
2.
i wanna slap you more than her
i wondered if we were friends, you said der.
but what's happening now?
it's almost like we had a row
you're completely leaving me
tho you know i just can't be
alone for long.
i'll start to shut down, to go wrong
my breath comes fast
in a frenzy to find you, rush rush rush.
then when i finally do,
you act like everything's cool
then you suddenly talk to the nerd
she's so soft she's barely heard.
a month ago you were totally ignoring her
upon sight, you went 'ee-yer'
(lols. only thing i could think of.)
right now you've got a new pet
she's your runner, your rat.
who was there for you
when there was nothing you could do
who was it
ask yourself, think for a bit.
use your brain for once
and stop this stupid childish dance
between friends and fiends
who shared your losses, your wins?
i wanna slap you both,
but first i'll swear an oath
to slap you more than her.
i was really angry at me friend at that time, but now we're ok so yeah.
3.
i never really felt anything for you
i just wanted a relationship so bad i told myself i do.
but not it's over
and you're free to go to her
i guess all i was was an excuse
just something you used
to show off how popular you were
and to get closer to her.
argh. the rest is too depressing. hahaha. really. and i don't feel that way anymore. yup. there's my very first song...you can go search my archives. i believe it should be...march? or may. not sure. anyway, go check it out. it starts with 'why is it that when i want it to rain it never does?' and so on. i actually think that's my nicest song yet. =) so proud. hahaha. anyway, it's like 4 mins to 1 am. so...good night people. (morning actually)
sleepingly yours,
{siLEA}
p.s my first song is on sunday, may 13th. haha. imagine, friday the 13th. ooh. haha. night.
@4:35:00 AM
♥ aelispeaks:yet another song. again.
yay. i love myself. haha. the second song of this month is out. i took like 10 mins to write it and parveen took 10 mins to write 2. hahaha. yes she is way better at writing songs. now before my mom comes and chases me off,
you said it was your fault
and explained it all, clear like a lightning bolt (ok i know that's corny but try rhyming 'fault'!)
you didn't wanna hurt me,
but that kindness i couldn't see.
so now i'm sorry,
and hoping you'll accept my apology.
i was simply selfish,
wanting every single petty wish
and when i didn't get it,
i bit off your head
i got angry,
and the person to blame is me.
so, like i said,
don't wish you were dead.
cos my heart'd break
as easy as porcelain, baked.
i know we're over
but i still feel for you, like duh.
so please, forgive me
even though we can't be
you may say there's nothing to forgive
but forgiveness goes two ways
at least for me anyways.
so think about what i've said
but don't hurt your head.
if you fall sick again,
i'll throw you off the building with a crane.
LOL. ok i know the last verse is complete crap but it's all i could do in like, 1 minute. hahaha. anyway, it's pro cos most people don't write songs of apology. even if they have the word 'sorry' in it its like kinda sarcastic, or ironic. mine isn't. SO THERE PARVEEN. p-a-r-v-e-squared--n. LOL. being lame. anyway, i've got like, 3 more songs which i feel like putting up. to show the world and get discovered hahaha.
hmm. i think i'll talk about band now. lately it's been getting worse. i mean...almost everyday we get talked to...not that i think there's nothing wrong, or that it's a waste of time, but it's...kinda demoralizing. in a way. no offense to the seniors or anything, but yeah. note: i said 'in a way'. like...16 words back.^ see? haha. but there was a little comedy at the end of today's talk, cos they asked 'why do you think we make you do drills?' then elaine said 'for fun?' then xuan ying said 'for somethingsorry xuan ying!' then serena said 'to torture you under the sun?' well maybe elaine said the sun and serena said the fun. i can't remember. but it rhymed and a few people grinned, including them.
then later on...after sectionals, we came back and miss tan played the singing version of 'Last Christmas' and it was a guy singing but it was super gay. i was laughing like mad inside. haha. i think it was backstreet boys or maybe JT's old band (forgot the name). miss tan said it was a boyband, maybe westlife? nah. westlife isn't gay. hahaha. anyway, me mom is chasing, but i shall ignore. LOL. i'll start a new post with all my songs so far. just in case i lose any of the papers.
singingly yours, (it's meant to be songingly but singingly is nicer)
{siLEA}
Monday, August 27, 2007 @6:18:00 AM
♥ aelispeaks:another song.
i'm so proud. this is like my...5th song? yes i know parveen's done like...102 but mine mean more. SO THERE. haha. anyway, to the person it's 'dedicated' to, i know i said i'm not angry. i'm not. i'm just...sad, confused and upset. really. so i didn't lie. and to bess, you were right all along. anyway, my song.
what do i have to do for you
to look my way for a moment or two
things were going along perfectly
'till you said you needed to talk to me.
you said you couldn't hurt me
and that we couldn't let things be
well guess what, you did hurt me
and i cried the whole night, in pain and expectancy
for you to call me up again and say
i'm sorry, i love you for forever and a day
but you didn't call,
not at all.
we were at least i was so in love,
i was on cloud nine, maybe way above.
but then you had to say that,
that that made me feel so down, so bad.
you pulled me out and threw me down,
in a sea of emotions i drowned.
you told me not to cry,
when to our relationship you said bye
what kind of fool are you,
to think i'd actually be able not to?
i prayed so hard last night
wanting for everything to be alright.
why did you have to end it all
leaving me aside like some old rag doll.
i loved you, you said you loved me
so why couldn't leave things be?
if you didn't feel much for me,
why'd you call me your baby
i've been led on before,
then, in my face, he slammed the door.
was this just revenge, payback
for all the things i lacked?
or for how i broke your friend's heart.
well, you tore mine apart,
so thanks very much.
you say you miss a 'she'
do i even dare to dream that it's me?
don't think so.
oh yeah, by the way,
let's still stay friends ok?
well, that's it. but there's some bits that wouldn't fit...here they are:
the first time around, my heart got bruised
but i healed.
the second time, my heart froze, then cracked
when i found out that he still felt.
then you came along, and you cared for my injured heart.
you made me feel warm inside,
but then you had to do this,
and now my heart's in pieces.
weelll. if anyone can manage to rhyme that, while keeping the original meaning, i won't mind. thanks. anyway, i'm going to eat some chocolates now. it's a depressed girl's best friend, and then devil. (they make us feel better, then horrible cos we put on so much weight). LOL. anyway. chocolate. good night people.
depressingly yours,
{siLEA}
p.s the depressingly yours reminds me of Marvin in the hitch hiker's guide to the galaxy. haha. you know, Marvin the depressed robot? the super cute one. yep. XD
Thursday, August 23, 2007 @5:22:00 AM
♥ aelispeaks:the most untrue commentry about me.
i got this from bess who got it from kel. =X and the cancels are the things that i dont think are true. mind you, there'll be alot so to see the actual thing go to http://www.geocities.com/yteing/Astro-09-SagittariusF.html
THE SAGITTARIUS WOMAN
A tall slim and graceful woman who walked proudly like she is walking in a beauty pageant competition. If she slips or nearly falls, she will nicely cover it up and continue with her graceful and impressive walking step. She knows how to use make up to enhance her beauty. She looks at the world positively, so her face always seemed so happy.(i laugh a lot...does that count?) She will not get up set easily.(100% agreed. i love my bed) Self confident woman who believes in her own style. She will not follow fashion, but standing in between simplicity and being too modern.(yeah i wish)
She is a very open person, sometimes can be too blunt. She is an honest person and never tries to cause troubles for any one. (honest? never tries to cause troubles? HAHAHAHAHAHA) She likes to say something that you do not want to hear and yet she can say something so pleasing at the same time. (i can?) For example she may say "I wish you could make more money, so you could afford better clothes, but anyway it is better this way. If you make more money you could be thinking of money too much and become greedy". She can say such thing and make you wonder if you should get upset or love her more. She is also a free spirit and does not like to stay home. She likes to be protected, but not to give her orders. She has no respect to a weak man. (i don't?) If she tries to over power you, then you have to calm her down and try to control her to be in a limit by doing the same thing too. She will listen if she respects you. She likes to be herself and like her guy to be himself. She is a no nonsense woman, so you will not hear her say "Guess what I will do next", or "Guess what I am thinking" because she always say what she is thinking out loud like a guy. (not such a good thing and no, i do it sometimes) If you do not understand her in this matter, you could easily break up with her. She sees problems in her love life as another funny story. She is clumsy and it is in her nature. You may think it is cute, but for some neat guys this could be so unbearable. She is very friendly, so she can easily turn her enemy to be her friends. She has good taste in fine clothes, good food, first class and first services. Even a poor woman in this Zodiac will struggle to afford such good taste. She could spend lots of money as if she can not understand how difficult it is to make money. If you think of let her borrow money, think again. (i shall not comment on that. =X) She is a paranoid. If she thinks you like her, she may already think about getting married and losing her freedom and so on and on. (I SO DO NOT). A jolly (jolly??) woman who loves sports. (sports? ok la...i don't love it.)She is an ordinary woman who could dress like a tomboy. She has more guy friends and sometimes could act like one of the guys. She does not care about rumors, so she can get home very late and couldn't care less what her neighbor will gossip about her. She thinks either good or bad, you will know it yourself, so you should not bother what people think. Her wit and innocent look are her charms. (innocent???) She is often hurt from love, but never afraid to look for a new one as if she is singing "Do that to me one more time". (thats like Britney spear's song...oops i did it again. OMG. EW.) She likes going straight and being straight forward. She will not go around to get what she wants, or beat around the bush just to say something. If you meet her and tell her straight what you think, she will admire you. SAGITTARIUS (my observations)
Endearing/positive qualities: carefree, friendly nature (ok ok, I have also known some who are a bit withdrawn but that is due to family upbringing. Once you get to know then better, you will bring up the chatty nature in them), strong ability to put people at ease.
Qualities that can drive you a bit crazy: because too friendly and chatty sometimes create jealousy, maybe a bit blunt, tend to be perceived as superficial, loves to find out the latest news (the actual word is gossip).
Suggested ways to show endearment: give a bit of freedom and be friendly.
Zodiac in which they develop mutual understanding: Aries and Leo.
Zodiac in which a bit challenging and need more patience and understanding: Gemini (zhen wei!!), Virgo and Pieces.
@4:48:00 AM
♥ aelispeaks:
in Bessy's words (or word), GAH.i haven't blogged in ages. i wanted to blog on the alumni meeting night but cj just had to hog the com to 'study'. more like...open books, blast crappy music, play solitaire and his retarded football manager game. oh yeah. and totally piss me off. grrrr. why were elder brothers even invented in the first place?? sooo unfair. anyway, i shall now make up for the missed days.
alumni meeting night
it was...on the....20th. i think. haha. a monday btw, which meant band. bessy told me but it was at 7 and band ended at 6...usually 6.15 tho. so i told bess that i couldn't make it. but in the end, i rushed like mad after band well not really and took 334 to jps. i reached at like 7.30. haha. anyway, once again, they were totally rude to us, the people they were seeking help from. like, come on. you need our help and you totally insult us and scold us. HELLOO? i seriously feel like purposely sabotaging the whole thing...but i'm not that evil. haha. anyway, me, bess, ash and ben chia are in charge of the treasure hunt. well actually we just have to put the 'treasures' in their hiding places and voila, we're done. haha. why is voila pronounced 'walah' when it should be 'vouila'? haha. walah. LOL. anyway. so then after the meeting we walked to the bus stop, then debated on where to go to eat. we decided on jec mac but the guys (gid reece etc) decided to go eat prata. on the bus, i was totally dejected. or whatever. the only TUGist among all reTUGists. and of course bess had to pointedly point that out. so i became the invisible (not to mag) friend. casper 2. thankyouverymuch but i think i prefer the name 'silea'. anyway, when we reached jec, my stupid dad had to call. well actually i was stupid enough to answer his call when i had already missed 3 of them. but he ordered me to come back and that there was dinner at home so no, i couldn't eat with my friends. and again, bess had to say that i always pangseh them and good thing the table had 4 chairs for her mandy mag and kel. yeah thanks a lot bess. aiya. nvm. oh yeah. i just remembered something totally irritating. like when i was on the 334 going to the meeting, there was this uncle (i think) standing behind me. i was sitting btw, next to the window. then he was facing the window and kept clearing his phlegm (the stuff in the throat...flem?) it was seriously irritating me and grossing me out. and he was doing it without covering his mouth or anything, and i could see his breath steam on the window. ew. that was what i really planned on blogging about for the alumni night. haha.
lets see. after alumni night was....band? i mean the next day, after school that is. hahaha. imagine band at 9 pm. omigosh. the school will be super freakyyyyy. haha. and the people living near the school will complain from the sound. i mean, come on. who has heard of a non-soundproof band room? i mean, if you don't have a band room at all then it's ok but if they bother to make a band room they should at least make it soundproof. even the CO room last year was soundproof. but we always left the door slightly ajar so what we wouldn't have to press the button to get out every time. anyway. my bag spoilt on tuesday. i think. like the zipper, i unzipped it too hard and the whole thing came off. i managed to fix it tho. luckily. on wednesday it came off again and elaine helped me to fix it after band. on wednesday, i also managed to play part G of last Christmas in tune. yay. i mean, half the time i wasn't pressing anything ok? you know how hard that is? at least for me. haha. anyway, then...yesterday, thursday, i took the bus to tiong with quite a few band seniors (yay again) but xinyi wasn't there cos she had class. so sad. haha. xinyi is cute la. and short. LOL. then...the rest of the seniors went off to eat lunch at dunno where, and i managed to convince sam to follow me to buy bubble tea. haha. in the end she didn't buy but queued with me anyway. i flipped through her physics textbook and she flipped through my super messy file. and almost all my test papers. hahahaha.
then when i got my drink she poked the poor Gemini in the eye, then a bit of juice leaked out and she kept saying 'eyeball juice' or something totally gross like that. poor Gemini man... i mean it's cute ok? i usually try not to poke the cute pictures...cos they're so cute. LOL. sam is sadistic. totally. and her notes are messier than mine. =X haha. then...she said she was meeting someone, and she told me to wait and see. so i did. and guess what? it was miss tan. yes, the dreamt about miss tan. then sam kept trying to guess my friend's name. haha. god knows how she knows. and the whole while through miss tan was walking separately and was emo-ing. like really. no offense miss tan but really. oh yeah. and no offence about the dragon thing either. can any band senior reading this sms her that for me? thanks. anyway, then sam couldn't guess...and miss tan was hinting at me to stop drinking in the mrt station but i didn't get it...then my train came and their train came then we left lo. LOL. seriously. then after that i asked sam why miss tan was so emo then she said cos all true musicians are emo. then i asked her 'aren't you a true musician? you're not emo.' but she didn't reply that. she has a habit of not replying my questions. grr.
anyway, i'm actually getting dizzy from too much com. like we had to stay back and do our project today, and i was reading some stuff until i felt like fainting. i mean, i was reading for like what, 2 hours straight? then half way through i heard someone playing five for fighting's superman on the piano outside and i was tempted to sing but i didn't. LOL. then...after that i went back with vivan and amirah, after buying sushi. yum. hahaha. ok i'm actually going to sleep or try to now. nitexx everyxonexx. ugh. i can't twit. THANK GOD FOR THAT. night.
twittingly yours,
{siLEA}
p.s i do not appreciate my blog being called a source of entertainment thankyouverymuch. these are real happenings and feelings. unless i'm laughing too of course.
Saturday, August 18, 2007 @4:57:00 AM
♥ aelispeaks:lols.
i must be going mad. I dreamt something weird again. Well, not so weird. Kinda normal actually. It's just that i don't usually remember my dreams so yeah. Haha. Anyway, my dream.
Weell. Things were kinda out of porportion. Like things being where they never could be. Haha. So. Keep that in mind. So i think it was supposed to be end of last year...the last relaxing holiday i had with TUG. Well, we were sitting outside the new JPS building. When i say outside, i mean outside. YES I know it's a road. but seriously. it was like...you know one of those stone tables and stools? yeah. we were sitting at something like that. oh yeah. we = bess me kel mag mandy ben chia ashley (oddly) justin and yx. so yeah. we were slacking basically. and there were tones of snacks on the table...we must have been rich or something. then...yeah. we were just talking having fun. (this is what i can remember btw) then i was half lying down - leaning against yx (don't ask me how lying down is possible if we're sitting on stone stools cos i have no idea either) suddenly my aunt called. ok i know that's totally random but it happened. then...oh yeah. she asked me if i could go out with her and my other aunt. to get McFlurries (flurries?) which i love btw. so i was super happy and laughed. (LIKE DUH.) then justin said i laugh very loud. so i laughed again, softer. haha. then i told my aunt ok cos i had already spent like half the day with my friends. then i turned around and asked yx to send me back home cos my aunt would be meeting me there. then he was staring at me in a weird way....not really weird but you get what i mean. then its like, i was kinda on my elbows cos if you remember i was lying/leaning on him then i turned around. then he was sitting normally staring at me. IMAGINE THE SCENE. >< >< >< >< >< >< >< >< >< he was about to say something then....
my bro jumped on me. no, seriously. for those of you who know my brothers, it was sijay. my eldest brother. and he tried to kick me off. like literally. then...we fought like mad...i pulled out his hair (yes really) then he gave up. YAY! then i went back to sleep. :D:D:D haha. but it was 12 plus so i decided to wake up. hahaha. then...yeah. ok i'm lazy to blog. haha. ok bye. =)
lazily yours,
{siLEA}
Friday, August 17, 2007 @4:27:00 AM
♥ aelispeaks:no more ouran!!!???
grrrr. this is SO unfair. all the ouran high vids have been take off youtube! all because of some retarded copyright thing. i mean, if we're watching it we're supporting you aren't we? and just when i was starting to re-watch it. COME ON. this so sucks la. grrrrrr. now i've got nothing to watch. stupid copyrights.
anyway, on the subject of animes, fruit basket was taken off too. i mean leyi watched it before but all i get is retarded dubs in retarded voices. and i can tell how funny it is from the first episode which i watched in jap long time ago. grr. then also 2 or 3 other jap anime vids that are quite nice have been taken off too. that is like soo unfair!! inuyasha has too i think. i'm gonna check for shamn king soon. but then again inuyasha is so long that i doubt anyone has really finished watching it. i mean 7 seasons? just catch whats-his-name (the evil guy), kill him and GET IT OVER WITH. its almost like he's never gonna do it. oh yeah. then after that get married to kagome or something. it's irritating the way they keep acting like they dont have feelings for each other.
yes i know i'm being over critical but it's seriously irritating. OMG YAYYYY. SHAMAN KING IS STILL THERE!!!!!! <33333333333333333333. hahaha. ok i'm going to watch it now. i may blog about my CA2 later. if i feel like it. haha.
shaman king-ly yours,
{siLEA}
Monday, August 13, 2007 @5:10:00 AM
♥ aelispeaks:omg. this totally freaks me out....
like i said, OMIGOSH THIS TOTALLY FREAKS ME OUT. i fell asleep today, and had like the scariest dream in...dream history? really. but it's kinda...ironic? the way it's so untrue but yet scary. oh yeah. no offense to the people who are in the story, really. it's just...the way i dreamed it.
anyway. it's a band prac...but in the old JPS school hall. we're on the side of the carpark, the left hand side. we're sitting behind one of the pillar things, facing in. ok. so we're practicing right, then ok this part is kinda hazy, but we were asked to play. we = horn section. one by one. Caszella went first. if i remember correctly, she played it wrongly, then went something like 'oh shit!'. apparently this made miss Tan (our teacher/conductress/instructor [?]) really really angry. and...she turned into this huge freaky red dragon. REALLY. ok i know you're probably laughing, but it gets worse. no offense miss Tan, you're really...un-dragonish? then she gets up, picks up Casz in her huge jaws, and throws her to the stage. of course, Casz flies. and hits the wall. and collapses. Miss Tan then flies/jumps over and does something out of sight. of course i'm petrified. but oddly calm when she returns. then it's hui min's turn. she plays it nicely. then i can't remember, but i think miss Tan was saying something like 'you're the SL it's your fault, responsibility so on and on.' the words were hazy. or at least they are now. then well, she tried to 'punish' (?) hui min too, but spared her. [THANK GOD. sorry casz. don't mean anything.] then it was my turn. i can't remember if i played it right...but suddenly i got up and ran away from her into the small corridor. she chased me but i wheeled around and ran back into the hall. she obviously caught up. when i saw her coming i squatted down and put my hands over my ears, then eyes. i felt her coming, then flinched. suddenly i could feel her jaws around me. then i could hear her say 'you wished that i would miss again wouldn't i? what do you wish for?' OBVIOUSLY in my present state i wished she would miss. but i said 'i wish to live.' or something totally sad like that. then, some teacher walked in (MY HERO) and miss Tan quickly let me go. she pushed me to my seat and turned...back into a human? but she whispered to me 'you're lucky you got off this time.' and when i turned, i saw hui min gripping her horn like super tight until her knuckles were white (for real) and beside her i saw Casz limping out towards us. the teacher apparently didn't notice anything wrong. weeeelll. then i woke up half crying.
OK I KNOW IT SOUNDS TOTALLY CORNY. but it's true. and i did wake up half crying. it was that freaky ok? especially the but when she asked if i wished she had missed. i swear i gave a better answer but still. its the best i can remember. btw, NO OFFENSE TO ANYONE a) not mentioned, it was a dream i can't control it. and b) mention and maybe offended. this is seriously how i dreamed it. and if Casz comes to school tomorrow limping we'll know what happened. LOL. just joking. well now i'm not that scared anymore, cos seriously, miss Tan, a huge red dragon? no way. anyway. enough about the dream for now.
hmm. today we had english in the morning, chinese after recess. tomorrow we have history, and i SO CLEVERLY lent my book to Cheow Sue-Ann. haha. but at least i have my notes. and i'll read through my textbook in the morning so the info is fresh in my mind. wish me luck people, and hope that i don't get any other weird scary dreams anymore. haha. ok, my mom's yelling for dinner. gotta go people! good luck to all sec 4s for your prelim, and anyone else having common tests or CA this week. JIA YOU. (i am sooo kind. :D) hahaha. ok fine. bye!
dreamily yours,
{siLEA}
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