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Monday, December 31, 2007 @9:37:00 AM
♥ aelispeaks:
yeah yeah. happy new year and all. blah blah blah.
do you ever get the feeling that you just wanna be loved? like you just want to feel good about yourself.
and you want to hear that person say it. but everytime you give him a chance to he just disappoints you over and over again. until you have to imagine that even the slightest 'haha' at a thing you said was his way of showing his feelings.
and trust me. a person can go mad trying to scrimp out things and feelings that aren't even there.
you can be feeling so down and sad. then you talk to that person and you hope that he'll cheer you up. but what he says just hurts you more. and the worse thing is, he doesn't even realize it. or even if he does...he doesn't care.
there's so many things i wanna say to him. how he makes me feel...furious at times but confused...mostly.
if he doesn't feel anything for me anymore why can't he just say it? why does he have to make me imagine and hope and pray just to be disappointed again and again.
and i try to ignore him.
to not think about him.
to not talk to him.
but it doesn't work. if i don't have anything to concentrate on my mind wanders to him. what he's doing...what he's thinking...how he feels. but he just wont show anything.
sometimes i ask myself why do i even bother.
honestly, i dont know myself.
@7:25:00 AM
♥ aelispeaks:
omg. the countdown organisers are SO CHEAP. i just watched two unknown ppl sing hate that i love you...and they weren't actually singing. they were holding the mikes...moving their lips etc but the singing was from the CD. how do i know? when it was supposed to be 'ne-yo' singing 'rihanna's' lips were still moving. and no it wasn't supposed to be harmonisation or whatever. SO CHEAP MAN. can't sing then don't fake la. -sigh- our singapore performers are so sad.
Tuesday, December 18, 2007 @6:00:00 AM
♥ aelispeaks:
mind you. read post BELOW then read this. yes thankyou.
congratulations. for those of you who have read the post below, you can now move on to read my poems. for those of you who haven't, GO READ IT. NOW.
1. which one am i?
some people are active and others inert
some people are lazy and others alert
some people are nasty and some are nice
some are warm first then a moment later, ice.
some people are happy and joyful and gay
some people are sad and unhappy all da
some people laugh and some people cry
i ask just one question which one am i?
is it the good that i see when it rains all day long
is it the good that i se when it's all going wrong
do i look for the good things when it's all going bad
do i like being happy or would i rather be sad
some people are clever, intelligent for sure
some people are silly and go back for more
some people are different and that's how we grow
but there's one thing in common and i'm sure we all know
come back to the truth, the simplicity in life
me as a person am i nasty or nice
am i up and up, or am i down and down
come back to the truth, the earth is still round
if i had my own way, what would i do
would i rather be happy, would i rather be blue
some people are honest and some people lie
i ask just one question, which one am i?
2.
yo. are you deaf? perhaps stupid or blind?
can you not see what's happened to the state of our mind?
already you've gone in your own little world
you don't hear what i've said as our minds have a shield
the earth is not real and the birds don't exist
nor do the gorillas in the high mountain mist
the tigers, what tiger? there's millions out there
are we blind to reality? what tiger? why care?
so what of the fish that swim in the seas
so what of the flowers that blow in the breeze
so what of the sun that warms a cold day
are we blind to the heat or are we cultured that way?
are we deaf to the cries and tears of a storm?
are we numb to the feel of the sun when it's warm?
listen to the water the sound as it flows
find a small flower and watch as it grows
listen to life and open your eyes
know when it's dark that the sun will still rise
get the most out of life you only have one
listen to your heart and changes will come.
well. i'm being chased off so the rest will have to come at another time. night!
(p.s it's 3 am in nz...so morning to any nz-ers)
%KylaAelis-
@5:50:00 AM
♥ aelispeaks:
o.m.g. nz is like so totally goregous. but like after 2 weeks....when you go around a bend, you don't go 'OOOHHH. MOUNTAIN.' or 'OOOHHH. LAKE.' or just 'OOOHHH. BEAUTIFUL SCENERY.' you go : 'oh. another mountain.' or 'oh. another lake.' or even 'oh. another mountain and lake.'
you get me.
but still. for those of you like ben who are dying to see what it looks like, my dad's making a slideshow and i can ask him to do another one without our family photos so you don't freak out when you see how hideous my family looks.
(p.s scroll down!)
JOKING.
lols. i bet half of you went like 'OMG HOW COULD SHE SAY THAT??'. lols. relaxxxx. breatheee. lols. anyways. i got like tonnes of candiess!
but because i'm like such a totally kind person...none of them are for me. as tempting as they are...i got them all for friends. :D thank you thank you. i should like so get the humanitarian award or something.
LOL. yes i'm being lame and acting like a priss. it's fun. :D lols.
anyways. i managed to write some cool poems. so. of course i'll put them up. don't you know there are millions of uncultured barbarians out there just like you? my poems are like a gift or intelligence to the cavmen.
ROFLMAO. okok take it easy. no offence. prissing again. hahahaha. sorry if i hurt any feelings. really no offence meant.
ok time for next post and my poems. =)
&KylaAelis.
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