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Monday, January 14, 2008 @6:49:00 AM
♥ aelispeaks:
should i be happy because we are friends or sad because that's all we'll ever be? i really dont know.
do i want to do well or does my mom want me to do well, and now i think that i think that i wanna do well. i have no idea.
have i improved as a person, and do i think and feel better? not really. i've improved. i think better. but i dont feel better. some of it's just not me.
do i want to be a top leader or a simple one or not one at all? i'm not sure but i just want to be able to live up to expectations that are believed capable for me.
have i finally learnt to let go, to accept things and people for who and what they are? yeah. but i'm not always liking it. (note: i dont like it. not them.)
do i act big, or think that i deserve or even already are a good leader? you tell me.
am i happy with the way things are? yes no how would i know?
i don't even know myself.
i need some answers. but not judgement.
i need someone to talk to. but not someone to tell the world.
i need time and space. but not eternity and separation.
i need to find out who i am. but not who people see me as.
i want to be loved. but i just want it from that person.
i want trust. but just from her.
i want proof. and i need it soon.
i need him to stop it. before i lose myself completely.
i need him to relate. but not get too close.
i need and want someone to talk to. i need and want some help. please.
one1.zero2. one4/zero1/zero8.
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