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Saturday, April 05, 2008 @9:28:00 PM
♥ aelispeaks:
if. let's say. you have to do a project. and if you win you get to go to america. so yeah, it's a big deal.
but you have other responsibilities, like tuition and cca that you already made a commitment to way before the project. and because of these responsibilities, you can't contribute much to the project, tho you want to. and your groupmates need you to be at the meetings so that you can be 'up to date'.
but you can't. because of those responsibilites.
so. now, my question for you.
should you give up all those commitments and just say 'oh it's only for a while until this project is over. it'll all be fine.'
or will you say 'no, i made these commitments first i can't just give everything up for one project. i can try to make time for the project but if it clashes then the commitments i made first should have higher priority.'
peer presure is stressful.
and i'm not blaming anyone. i'm just saying. if i can't, it means i can't. i want to do well for this as much as anyone.
you think i'm just slacking off and being a bother. fine. next time if i can't cope i'll say no.
but even then you just can't blame it all on me and say i'm holding back the group. if i can't make it then it doesn't mean you have to wait. how i'll catch up is my problem not yours, cos i'm the one who keeps skipping.
and anyway when we meet up, for the first hour or so, we'll keep talking. even you know that. and maybe in that one hour, we'll decide on one thing. then we'll play around for another half hour before we practice what we discussed. then after that we'll take a break that will lead to more sitting around...occationally voicing out opinions.
i'm not saying i can do this all without play. yeah it's fun. but we can have fun and get the work done, in lesser time that we've been taking.
ok fine. that you've been taking, since i'm always not around.
i know i'm sounding like a right snobby bitch who just talks and talks without actually contributing anything. yeah maybe i am.
but if i say i really can't make meetings or stuff it means i can't.
you know i would if i could.
and i'm not like you all who just say 'oh i need to go for a meeting so i'll skip tuition and copy homework tomorrow.'
my mom isn't like yours who say 'oh. project? ok then you can skip this week. but make sure you get home on time.'
mine goes 'NO. you must go for tuition cos you're flunking horribly. by my standards. i want 70 over for all. look at how well your classmates are doing. 80 plus. if they can do it why can't you? you know your school is lousy compared to the other schools, so even if you're top in your school it's not enough cos you'll still be low compared to the other schools. so if' you're bad in an already bad school you're really pathetic you know? you might as well drop out. then i can go back to full time work. and i don't have to care about you waking up and going for tuition.'
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