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Monday, January 04, 2010 @3:42:00 AM
♥ aelispeaks:
what the fuck. seriously.
all i did was MENTION that there's a POSSIBILITY that MAYBE the sec 4s will have to go to Australia with the band.
and before i could mention that i was prepared not to go, she freaking shot me down.
'i'm not signing any consent form. you're not going do you understand you're not going!!'
SHUT THE FUCKING HELL UP LIKE I FUCKING CARE ABOUT WHAT THE FUCK YOU SAY.
if you didn't want me to do any of this in the first place why did you let me join band??
and even then why didn't you say 'i'm not going to let you do anything at all besides be driven mad by me and studying so don't get to fucking involved in band.'
band isn't like fucking orchestra. i mean i love CO too, but that was fucking primary school.
and she's the fucking one asking 'why aren't you like siian, he has eagles award, colours award blah blah blah.'
yeah he also has fucking narcolepsy.
the reason i don't have any of those stuff, is because i'm fucking not him. and because you keep holding me back!!
why the hell do i HAVE to get ALL A1s??
because sijay didn't? because siian can't?
so i'm the last chance for you to strut around going see my kid got all A1s.
wtf. why don't you fucking do it yourself.
from the start i never managed to get near an A for humanities, so why can you say that you 'know i CAN get A for everything' when i'm the one studying and taking the exam???
i mean, in sec 1 you pushed me, and then i really needed it, so i appreciated it and let you push me, and i did well generally.
then in sec two you got a little too pushy but i just let you continue cos i knew if i told you to lay off i'd probably just slack off.
and then last year you totally went overboard and kept pissing me off. and the whole issue with chingay is just fucking ridiculous.
i need to scream.
eliz i really need you right now. why can't you come back yet.
it's just one more day but it's killing me.
and i still can't talk to you.
2010 has gone off with a fucking miserable pathetic start.
fuck the world.
-aelis.
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