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i am AELIS
aka SILEA
i love the FRENCH HORN & TRUMPET and the CELLO!
i love STCBAND! many instruments, one sound. many sections, one family!
i love the HORNS & TRUMPETS! GO HORNIES & TRUMPETERS!
i am currently in sec 4 ATOMIC! watch out, we'll blow you away!
i was born on ohfive onetwo ninefour. presents are always welcome(:
i am taking part in CHINGAY 2010! look out for me!
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Saturday, March 06, 2010 @2:16:00 AM
♥ aelispeaks:
okay...here to bitch about my mom again so it's probably gonna be vulgar. which means, felicia stop reading. hahaha.
it's like...i got 28/35 for emaths CA1 when like even gaoshan got the same mark as me and the highest was probably abigail with 30/35, which is 2 marks more than me and alot of people in the BEST class (sorry not implying anything to people from other classes) failed.
and so obviously i was like damm happy right, cos it's 80%. even sam congratulated me when i told her.
so i went home, and we were having dinner + felice (siian's girlfriend) and my mom was like so have you gotten back any papers yet?
so i happily said "i got 28/35 for emaths!!"
and she was like, 'it's still not an A1'.
just like that. not even a "oh that's better than last time." or "that's good"
right away just shoot me down.
i mean, yeah i know that in O levels cos of the mark curve thing where if like everyone does damm well the mark for A1 will go up, so to secure an A1 it's like 85+ la...
but still. -.-
i mean srsly. if she said "that's good, but you know it's still not enough to secure an A1 for Os right?" i would still be okay, cos it's like at least she notices that it's a good grade, and is just wanting me to secure that A1.
but no, it's always 'that's not good enough.'
NOTHING I EVER FUCKING DO IS GOOD ENOUGH.
i might as well fail right. since i get FUCKING 80 and it's STILL NOT ENOUGH FOR HER.
so what's the difference.
studying and even trying is just wasting my time what since she'll always say the same thing.
and i bet even if (by some miracle) i get full marks for everything, she'll pick on smt else.
like she'll say "your handwriting is horrible"
or "your school standard is so lousy, full marks in your school is nothing! if you're in a good school you won't even pass okay!"
and for those of you who are saying 'you should have told her that alot of people failed and didn't do well!', yeah i tried that in like sec 2.
she will say 'so? you're not all those people. and that girl got 30! means it possible for you to be even better than her!'
kns bitch go burn in hell.
i mean, srsly she always makes me feel like i'm not good enough in everything i do.
when i wanna buy new clothes, she's like 'for what? your face so horrible, so many pimples nice clothes also no use.'
then when i srsly use like damm alot of face stuff to clear up my complexion then she complains about my split ends. -.-
and obviously my grades are never good enough.
when i got for band, she complains, then after that asks me why my playing is so fking lousy, why don't i go join some fking big band.
oh. that time...she suddenly (out of nowhere) heard of some Big Band thing and suddenly became obsessed with it. it's like, Big Band is kinda like a jazz/brass band kinda thing. it isn't literally a large size band, it's just like a style/genre of music. but she keeps thinking that Big Bands and normal concert/symphonic bands are soooo different. -.-
so i just randomly asked if i could take up dragonboating after Os, cos i like team sports, and also like, water sports like kayaking etc.
and she was like 'why don't you go join some Big Band outside?'
and obviously i was like huh. big band...?
and she started rattling off about what using my strings experience (when Big Band has like, only double bass, probably?) and if not i'll waste my 4 years of cello 3 years of horn and 1 yr of trumpet blablablablablabla crapshit like she knows so much.
and so i told her that like, big band has probably only double bass, and if i did join i would be playing trumpet, so my strings experience has nothing to do with it.
and she totally didn't get it (obviously) and continued rattling on.
-.-
so i got quite pissed cos, okay yeah i don't mind joining outside bands, it's quite fun. but i can do that in JC/poly right? the dragonboat thing would be like for 2 months maybe, for me to get some exercise after Os.
and she's like 'you already made up your mind right? then forget it la why still ask me'
KNS BITCH.
so i was like 'you're the one who wants me to exercise more right?! isn't dragonboating exercise? zhenyu (my cousin) is in dragonboat and he's like damm fit right?!'
and she said 'you just want to meet people right?! like your stupid chingay just go there to meet people.'
HELLO DID YOU EVEN FUCKING HEAR ME?!!
and she kept going on about me joining outside bands. HELLO IT'S NOT THAT SIMPLE CAN. I GO JOIN SERANGOON BAND LA YOU WANT?! OR CHANGI BAND EVER BETTER RIGHT OPPOSITE SIDE OF S'PORE. AND MOST OF THOSE PEOPLE ARE LIKE ADULTS WHO PROFESSIONALLY LEARN MUSIC CAN, IT'S NOT SOME STUPID MUSIC COURSE AT THE CC OKAY.
so i said, yeah i'll join band in JC/poly, and i'll have STC alumni band.
her reply, "your band so lousy join back for what."
fuck you to hell srsly.
and so i gave up asking and continued fuming.
i mean, there's so much i wanna tell her but she never actually listens. yeah she HEARS me talking back to her, but she doesn't actually LISTEN to what i'm saying.
i've tried. at the end of last year, cos she was always complaining that she doesn't know where i am. so it's like, wherever i go i'll send her a text. like after school "i just ended sch going for lunch shd be back abt 5" or after band 'just finished band shd be back at 7', or even when i went out ' i'm on the bus back now.' stuff like that.
and she still complained, cos SHE NEVER READS TEXTS. -.-
i wish she would just stop being so hard on me.
i mean, i get that she wants me to do well, I GET IT MOM. I'VE GOTTEN IT SINCE SEC 2.
i want to fking do well too, like duh i'm the one who asked for more tuition right. -.-
okay going to grandma's hse.
shall continue later if she pisses me off again.
-evilaelis
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